So, im going to be honest here, i cant figure this thing out. Why i do this to myself i don't know–i just figured out how to work the new facebook and navigate that semi-smoothly and then i throw the blogspot concept at myself. this is not good. i was literally lost in my OWN profile for a half hour. i couldnt figure out how to get back to my blog. i finally just had to sign out and then sign back in. Its hard to admit defeat–especially at the hands of an website.
But, while i was sitting there lost on my own page i noticed something...something interesting and maybe even disturbing. I was looking at my "interests". and they include, if you have not read them already (and if you havnt i dont hold it against you), God, reading, writing, theology, philosophy...etc. I read this list over a few times (for the seventh time as i tried to find my way out) and satisfied that it correctly summed up my life i began to scroll down in another hopeless search for a link to my blog, and then it dawned on me. What was God doing under my "interests"? Sure, like a good Christian i listed him first, who wouldnt....but an Interest? i mean, yeah...i'm interested in God for sure, but thats why i put Theology on there. theology is a legitimate interest. Should that be a designation for God?
I scrolled back up and stared at it. what should i do? Surely God didnt belong in this category...but where should i put Him? (figuratively speaking of course. remember, this is the guy who is lost in his own profile.) I liked the Passion of the Christ, but God didnt ultimately belong in my Movies. i like Christian music but he doesnt ultimately belong there. i like Christian books by Ted Dekkar and company but God doesnt ultimately belong there either. None of them seemed right, none of them seemed like the place to list God so that he would get the predominant place he deserved.
then i looked up. this little section labled "About me". A place where i had so cleverly written "its not" in a lame attempt to appear more spiritual. It occured to me that i would like to place the name of God there, i want that to be true. I want everything "about me" to be about God. I dont want Him relegated to an interest or a movie or a song or even one of my beloved books, i want him consuming and eminating from my life so that no one need even ask what i am "about", the answer is plainly obvious.
This might seem kinda silly, the movement of "God" from one category on a profile to another. But in some ways i think its highly symbolic. And no, if you check my profile, i have not changed anything yet. I'm not sure i can, not because i'll get lost...i've figured this out...i think, but because I'm not sure that what that movement would signify would be completely true. i WANT it to be, i pray that it will be, but i dont think it is. I shall think on this some more.
1 comment:
Ever so true.
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